Is it possible to be in the midst of something so wonderful, so incredible that words fail to come even close to describing it, and still feel blah. (That’s the censored version, just for you Sam.)
Kate and I are living out the very vision God gave us. I believe we are on the cutting edge of what God is doing in the church today. I’m talking about the revival I looked for my whole life, it actually happened to me. We see miracles literally every single day.
Yet some days I just want to sit in front of my t.v. and not move.
This move of God doesn’t necessarily feel euphoric. I mean I always dreamed of revival as a foot stomping, halleluiah shouting, pew jumping, aisle running party. Turns out that being in the midst of what God is doing is not so glamorous. It’s work, without any pews.
Not the 9 to 5 kind of work. Not the Sunday morning sermon kind of work. Not the Wednesday Bible study kind of work. Nope it’s 24 hours 7 days a week, 365 days of the year, the rest of your life kind of work.
Which is cool, but uncool at the same time. I suppose I am still being transformed by having my mind renewed. That old time religion is hard to purge.
I love what I’m doing. Caring for those who need caring. It’s great, and the move of God. I have learned so much about my Father in Heaven, and why I’m on the Earth. I would not go back to my old self. However……
Some days I miss sitting in front of my t.v. without a care in the world.